Further Reflections

First off, my life has sucked ever since returning to the US. I'm not even being dramatic. The following calamitous things have occurred to persistently plague me:
-Return stress/TFA interview/Brief period of insanity (thanks Honorio and Danny for breaking the cycle, lol)
-Hard drive crashes
-In hard drive crash, I lose a half-written Spanish essay AND the movie that the essay was about
-Spend 4 days straight at my computer writing final music exam, Cine, and Capstone to have them all handed in on time
-Said stress produces a phenomenon called "Trenchmouth"- this happened to WWI soldiers; as they were in the trenches, stressed about being constantly bombed, typically benign bacteria in their mouthes would suddenly attack and cause serious inflammation of the gums
-This happened to me on a Friday/Saturday, which meant that I couldn't see my dentist until Monday
-He still doesn't actually diagnose the infection, and only gives me a pain killer and mouth wash
-Oral surgeon the next day finally gives me antibiotics, but I also need my wisdom teeth out, which, because the surgeons are so busy, cannot do it until May 21
-Fradulent charges appear on my credit card, which I have to cancel
-I get rejected for the TFA job

That brings me to today. Life just sucks right now, although I suspect it will get better sooner or later. I also still realize that life here is better than it is in other places, thanks to an email I got from Yohandy today. He wrote to me about wishing that he could be with me at graduation, and saying that the most he can do is send me positive energy from Havana and hope that it gets to me. It made me think about the machismo that is so pervasive in Cuba, and now I wonder if it comes out of a sense of helplessness, or is at least exacerbated by it, because circumstances prevent men from completely fulfilling the roles that they think they should play. That, in turn, may lead them into thinking even more that they have to exude this extreme male-ness. Just a thought.